Angie Estes

Slowly But Not Too Much and When Your Lover Leaves You
October 24, 2024 Estes Angie

Slowly But Not Too Much

 

as if making your way through an alphabet
 
beginning with alpha, as if       you stood in front
of the Arcimboldo paintings in Vienna and someone said
 
Spring is in the Louvre, springtime is
 
in Paris.” Sometimes we were word for word, sometimes
 
unspeakable like the painted stone angel
 
in Dijon, who has been grieving silently
 
over the Passion of Christ since the end
 
of the 14th/beginning of the 15th century, as if
 
 
someone had said to her, adagio ma non tanto. Think of
 
the joy of making it onto the train before
it departs—or the sudden blossom of what’s possible
 
when you arrive a minute late and watch it
pull out of the station. Behind her,
 
the angel’s wings remain unfurled
 
 
as if they might fly. She still
 
wears her favorite color: chipped-stone blue. My favorite
 
 
is omega-may-I, and yours: Venetian-red-and-vanishing.

 

 

When Your Lover Leaves You

 

Learn a language you’ve never heard
 
 
Plant ginkgo trees, which will drop
all of their leaves at once
 
 
Practice the duet St. Francis sang
with a nightingale
 
 
Replace mezuzah scripture at front door
with sentence from AI computer essay: the present,
like everything else, will soon come
to an end
 
 
Donate matching red leather women’s World Champion
Ferrari Race-to-Win jackets
 
 
Touch the clothes left in the closet
the way the ocean plays tag
with the shore, and remember her design
 
 
for Lady Macbeth’s dress: one thick red drip of
blood sewn in from waist to floor
 
 
Consider the difference between remainder
and reminder, forget
 
 
how she dropped all of her clothes
at once and left them
where they fell

Angie Estes’ seventh book of poems, Last Day on Earth in the Eternal City, is forthcoming in 2025 from Unbound Edition Press. Her book Enchantée won the 2015 Kingsley Tufts Poetry Prize and the Audre Lorde Prize for Lesbian Poets, and Tryst was selected as one of two finalists for the 2010 Pulitzer Prize. Her second book, Voice-Over, won the 2001 FIELD Poetry Prize and was also awarded the 2001 Alice Fay di Castagnola Prize from the Poetry Society of America. Her first book, The Uses of Passion (GibbsSmith, 1995), was the winner of the Peregrine Smith Poetry Prize. A collection of essays devoted to Estes’s work appears in the University of Michigan Press “Under Discussion” series: The Allure of Grammar: The Glamour of Angie Estes’s Poetry (2019).