Kelle Groom

July 8, 2015 Groom Kelle



All my life stars falling on cars, the laundry
on the line, stars in my hair, open mouth,
and in my chest a massive celestial body.
How is it possible to feel you inside? The Lost
Museum is full of buildings. Some still stand –
it’s not their nonexistence that makes them lost,
but their state of ruin. Naked men are reconstructed.
Sometimes you can find the lost on a coin.
You won’t find anyone inside your house,
the postmistress said. Georges de La Tour,
who lived quietly at home, kept painting
the Magdalen, and two engravings, though only one
survives: at a table in long hair, nightdress,
dark mesh on her hands like gloves, veiling
her neck and mouth, skull where she rests
her fingertips. It is so quiet in her room, smoke signals
from a candle – nothing in the mirror except reflected
bone. She has that kind of sleek thin horse’s hair
I’ve always loved – strand by smooth strand pulled
back from her face to rest on her shoulder. Swing
when she moves. What can we do but love who
we love even if you won’t find them in our houses? If
someone must remove my head, saw open
my chest I want all this light to be what spills out.





Someone has to blue metal
for the gunmaker. Blue the gown

worn by those imprisoned,
licensed to beg. Goodbye

to Abdicate, to Abode, chunky heels
crossing wood floors at 3 a.m., door

slam hard behind a woman
who wants a cigarette, goodbye cigarette

smoke rising through heating
vents to coat my bed. Goodbye

Abroad, fear of anyone traveling,
planes. Goodbye Absence, withholding

myself from you; bye to Abstention, my sugared
hair sticky with coconut and jojoba, angel

food cake. Goodbye angel food cake,
which is my second favorite, cake of Cape

Cod, the special pan, of five years old,
bumpy browned top soft white inside still

strangely cool, cake my mother made though
she taught first grade every day. Goodbye

Acarus, blue spider-like mite. Goodbye
Acetate of Halloween costumes and flammable

dresses of no give and cardboard shine. Aker,
the current in the sea, how can I say goodbye to you?

The only way around is through. The drunk forget
they’re tired until they drop, talking

without pause. Their constant low
TV in the background

makes me feel hospitalized.
Start with Adawn, which after all

contains my middle name,
almost my first, my father’s

choice: Aurora. He said, If you want
to see yourself, just watch

the sun come up.  How could
such a thing still be

true?  But maybe imagine
her, a girl unnamed. Emerald

of fairy tales, and violets.
Another sky.

Kelle Groom is the author of the memoir, I Wore the Ocean in the Shape of a Girl (Simon & Schuster), a Barnes & Noble Discover selection, New York Times Book Review Editor’s Choice, and a Library Journal Best Memoir. An NEA Fellow and Massachusetts Cultural Council Fellow, Groom’s work appears in AGNI, American Poetry Review, Best American Poetry, New England Review, The New Yorker, New York Times, Ploughshares, Plume, and Poetry, among others. Her four poetry collections include Underwater City (University Press of Florida), Luckily, Five Kingdoms, and Spill (Anhinga Press). Her forthcoming memoir-in-essays, How to Live will be published by Tupelo Press in October 2023. Groom is a nonfiction editor at AGNI Magazine and lives in New Smyrna Beach, Florida.