Christina Pugh

Echo (and Narcissus)
July 26, 2025 Pugh Christina

ECHO (AND NARCISSUS)

 

I saw it in midcentury
black and white footage:
a hazy maw opening
and closing insufficiently,
a mouth that could never
speak yet never fully
close–it had no choice
but to be my heart.
A night- and day-laborer
who never got to rest,
nor ever understand
what my suffering
exacted without end.
When the technician
changed the colors
on the echocardiogram
screen, I saw my heart trying
to whisper violet
sawdust into words.
I love you, I thought,
as if speaking
to a mirror: I’m sorry
for the loves I served
that made you into this.

Christina Pugh is the author of six books of poems, including The Right Hand (Tupelo Press, 2024) and Stardust Media (University of Massachusetts Press, 2020), winner of the 2019 Juniper Prize in Poetry. In 2024, she also published a book of essays on poetry titled Ghosts and the Overplus: Reading Poetry in the Twenty-First Century (University of Michigan Press “Poets on Poetry” series, 2024), which was a recommended book in Choice.  Her poems have appeared widely, including in The Atlantic, Poetry, Yale Review, Ploughshares, Colorado Review, and other publications. A former Guggenheim fellow in poetry, she has also received awards and fellowships from the Poetry Society of America, Poetry magazine, the Bogliasco Foundation, the Illinois Arts Council, and others.  She is a professor in the Program for Writers at the University of Illinois at Chicago, where she was recently named Distinguished Scholar of the Year in Humanities, Arts, Design, and Architecture.  Her website is christinapughpoet.com.