Margo Berdeshevsky

March 21, 2016 Berdeshevsky Margo



Showers of snow geese.


Mirrors weren’t my friends anymore, couldn’t stand what they showed me, the changing flesh,

thinning hair that used to reach my knees, the drowning of names in a mud-thick water mind


the shorter breaths. But the voice of my ghost was kind. He told me it would end, soon. Touch me,

I begged. He didn’t but the geese began to rain every day, and I hummed for the blind to come near.


Showers of snow geese. The morning sky bled them, no one else noticed or was bothered. I

covered my eyes the way I always had when I passed any accident in the street, so afraid to see


anything dead. Afraid of winter branches, rotting gardens, abandoned houses. I hummed, like

the purr of a crone panther on her rock on a dry mountain. Hummed, so the blind came nearer.


You want so badly to be seen you’d paint eyes on the lids of the blind, my ghost said. A baritone,

sung between the notes of tumbling snow geese. He was my ghost, I heard him, I did what I was


told. Always so afraid to be near in any way—to what didn’t breathe. I wanted and needed to be seen

alive. Praised for being. For breathing, for not killing any enemies, for being a good girl, for being


a good woman, for becoming a knowing crone. You want so badly to be seen you would paint

eyes on the lids of the blind, the ghost had said. Yes, I mouthed. True.


My enemy had had a bad accident. The car had exploded on a curve and I crawled away. Soon,

the geese. Soon, my ghost. Soon, the rock on a slope of a sun-warm mountain and my own low


voice calling for the blind all night, until I was found holding a small white dog, my trembling

fingers stroking and stroking the lids of her chilled milk soft eyes.


I wanted to forgive something. Someone. I stroked the dog. I stroked my heart, until blindly it

broke all the way open, and one bird fell out. It was not blind. It was dead. But it hummed.

MARGO BERDESHEVSKY, born in New York city, often lives and writes in Paris. Her latest poetry collection, “Before The Drought,” is from Glass Lyre Press. In an early version, it was finalist for the National Poetry Series. A new poetry collection, “It Is Still Beautiful To Hear The Heart Beat” is forthcoming from Salmon Poetry. A hybrid book, “Kneel Said the Night” waits at the gate. Berdeshevsky is author as well of “Between Soul & Stone,” and “But a Passage in Wilderness,” (Sheep Meadow Press.) Her book of illustrated stories, “Beautiful Soon Enough,” received the first Ronald Sukenick Innovative Fiction Award for Fiction Collective Two (University of Alabama Press.) Other honors include the Robert H. Winner Award from the Poetry Society of America. Her works appear in Poetry International, New Letters, Kenyon Review, Plume, The Collagist, Tupelo Quarterly, Gulf Coast, Southern Humanities Review, Pleiades, Prairie Schooner, The American Journal of Poetry, Jacar—One, Mānoa, Pirene’s Fountain, Big Other, Dark matter: Women Witnessing, among many others. In Europe and the UK her works have been seen in The Poetry Review, PN Review, The Wolf, Europe, Siècle 21, Confluences Poétiques, Recours au Poème, Levure Littéraire, Under the Radar. She may be found reading from her books in London, Paris, New York City, Los Angeles, Honolulu, at literary festivals, and/or somewhere new in the world. Her “Letters from Paris” have appeared for many years in Poetry International online. Here is one:  For more information, kindly see here :